The loose ends

I’ve wondered through this world alone and lost a lot.
Pain has raised me and taught me so much.
I learned by doing and by seeing my life from outside the box.
I’ve seen my life grow, as I’ve grown older.
Yet none of it seems to right, of how I raised myself.
My childhood stole right from under me.
My gifts of being a kid, I never received.
Now still today, I wonder day by day.
Am I growing up the right way?
Am I who I’m supposed to be?
Would I had been so different then this me?
Now I step back and look at myself.
All the pain and the bad hard days.
I don’t regret a thing.
It made me who I am today.
Even though it made me who I am today.
I still will always have those lose ends.