Locked Inside Myself

Locked inside myself,

Trapped within my mind,

With all my memories,

From past lurking behind.



Unable to break out,

I cannot make me free,

As trapped were I in jail,

Behind bars only I can see.



Shadows lurk inside,

I’m linked to them forever,

They play and sulk within,

My hope begins to wither.



There’s only me and night,

And fears stalk me in the dark,

Only me myself,

My pain is clear and stark.



How do I get out?

Enslaved always to be me,

How do I escape,

When I can barely see?



I pound the walls I’ve built,

I strain against my chain,

I’m cornered, captured, left,

Alone inside my pain.



I know that once I loved,

I know there once was joy,

Once I liked it here,

Safe? It was a ploy.



But then the outside entered,

Then I went through hate,

My walls became my jails,

I tried – it was too late.



The memories, I fear them,

Forever I will flee,

Chased by my creations,

Never am I free.