when did i grow up?

I might be divorced,
I might be nearly thirty,
I might be responsible

But

I still want to hang out with friends,
I still want to listen to boy bands
I still want to go to concerts.

I don't.

I am still the same person.
But I have grown up.
Older and wiser.

In the past

I used to sit in bars with a book,
I used to be popular
I used to enjoy life.

Now

I would rather sit at home,
with a hot chocolate
And a cat on my lap.

I ponder

When things changed
When I started working?
When I got engaged?

Maybe.

It wasn't overnight
It wasn't even a choice
It just happened.

I grew up.