In between the angel and the beast

Just when I think I know myself I change
but something deep inside of me stays the same
an adult who thought all was well trying to comfort the child within
not knowing where her life is headed but having nightmares of where it has been
a dream so terrifying that seemed so real
I woke up screaming because of how it made me feel
but it wasn't a dream after all
It was a memory that I recall
one that had been locked away for so many years
and since that night I've cried so many tears
Now sometimes I feel all emotions at once and its overwhelming to say the least
the little girl inside of me crying because she is caught in between the angel and the beast
she just wants to be somewhere safe and warm
where no one would ever think of doing her harm
where she can play, sing and have fun
where she can swim, fly and run
to be free without a care in the world and become whatever she wants to become.
but does this place really exist is it really out there
if so how can she find it and where
let the angel and the beast fight if they must
but let the little girl have a safe place if anything is right and just