by Myself

pain i can control

pain nobody knows

nobody understands

no matter how hard i try



lost in a world of questions

unanswered thoughts in my head

everybody thinks I'd rather be dead

no matter how hard i try



pain on my wrists

from blades of steel

soon scares will form

but my heart will never heal



there is something

wrong with me

something that

i cannot see



something is wrong with my head

cause i hold on to the weak

i keep them close so i don't break

and try to be silent so i can't escape



holes in my spirit are forming

as i try to patch the scares

i am afraid of falling

so i try so hard



trying to right the wrongs

trying to fix the scares

trying not to cry

to afraid to even try



scared beyond belief

lost without a light

i must find my own strength

so i can win this fight



this is how i am now

this is not a shame

my mask will not fall

now i must pick myself up



i must fix my wings

find a way to restore my health

alone i will fight

and find a way by myself