The Truth

The truth may not always be the easiest to swallow but it should be the one you always want to hear.



Im keeping quiet till the storm leaves me alone, it’s hard to disconnect I can’t hold onto anything real. Im starting to lose control, everything is spinning, it’s like I lost my place in the story. I have nothing left to hold onto. I can’t remember anymore what it felt like to understand.. To truly understand. So now here I stand stuck confused and dizzy.. I don’t think ill ever stop spinning, only if the earth catches up to me.



You never know how many bridges you’ll burn when you leave, what if there never will be a return home? How come no one thinks straight anymore? We all see things in black and white not their true colors. We refuse to see what we know is there it’s just so much easier to just run away. I ran, and said im not coming back. But I did.. And now I stand here at the riverbank wondering why I ever left.



You asked me if I tested you, I would never be the one to do that because I could never tell anyone but myself that they failed. And in the end it looks like I did fail. I can’t trust myself to not be a danger to those around me and I can’t trust those around me to not be a danger to me.. it’s just the vicious cycle we all live in that we must understand how to balance, which I still haven’t learned to do.



When the spotlight shine’s on me I realize I forgot my lines. Everything I wanted to say to you is the last thing on my mind when I look into those eyes.. Maybe I was never meant to act but at least I can keep my secrets safe. Who am I really meant to be, what am I supposed to do? I want someone to guide me.. But the one’s that do are the ones that got me here. So here I am, stuck and all eye’s on me.. And I have no idea what my answer is. If only you could tell me.



As my blood still flows I know I must understand.. you made me tough you made me strong. But you also made it hard for me to see things like you do. I let my words take me where my heart wants to go. Its time to realize sanity and happiness can’t go together.



Don’t you give up yet, there’s always a new way to go, a new beginning, because we all feel the pain we just hide it well. The dreams will never end but you have to remind yourself to stay grounded, everything you dream is not reality, and reality might not be a dream. Even if were all scared to death we can make it out. If you don’t it’s still your own damn fault.  Cause a dream may just be that, a dream. But you should always believe.



We all fall sometimes but we have the strength to get right back up. We just need to find it even if you think it impossible. The strengths there it just might not be yours alone. Because really your never alone, there’s always some there to help pick you back up.