My Rock Bottom

Where is my rock bottom?
When will it end?
When will I be able to feel again?
I hear Your voice calling softly to me-
I could run back to You
Fall into Your loving arms
Bask once more in Your love and forgiveness-
Instead I sadly turn my face away
My shame dragging me down again.
I'm desperate to be close to You
If I could just reach out
and take Your hand
But my arms, my legs have turned to stone
Where is my rock bottom?
When will this all end?
When will I be able to feel again?
The rain falling out my window
Reminds me of Your amazing grace
The booming thunder is like Your voice
Resonating across the miles,
deep inside my heart and soul
I know what I must do
This morning, a new beginning....



...God, give me the strength to do this.