To Whom It May Concern

With every day that this continues
I hate to say but Im growing
More and more frustrated
Of you not knowing
Or knowing and not giving a
shit
You say
its almost over
You say
it will be fine
but you fail to see
whats going on.
or maybe you do
see it
but dont have the nerve to do
anything about it.
you wont let me
get any of this out
you just make me lie
you make me be quiet
make me stand by
you stifle me.
it seems right now
that im going insane
with all the anger and
frustration inside me
and you cant see it.
im standing right in front of you
screaming
but you still just
cant hear me.
you're pushing me away
at an alarming rate
i cant handle this stress
ive got too much on my plate.
i feel like im fighting alone
fighting a battle i cant
win
im running in circles
ending up where
i've already been.
you say one thing
but i feel that you
then do another
can i trust anyone anymore?
is anyone on my side?
you said that you were
you tried so hard
to make me believe
i was more important
and it worked for a moment
but then it changed
when the door opened
or maybe
just maybe
theres a slight chance
that i get my
undeniable lying abilities
from you.
to whom it may concern
my mental state is fragile
and lately i cry
more often than not
and im starting to think that
this war
is easier given up
than fought.