An Angel At My Side

A time of great happiness yet drenched in great sorrow
A feeling of dread as we approached tomorrow
The life inside of me helped me stay strong
When all else around me went terribly wrong
A dull aching throb tearing me apart
The loss of my mother had shattered my heart
The excitement I saw when she saw the scan
Of the little life inside me, my little man
The talks we had, the plans we made
The dreams that she had would eventually fade
Tomorrow was the day we had to say goodbye
For now was your time to be free and fly
The funeral came, you packed out the place
I looked to your coffin with a smile on my face
For that day I refused to let myself cry
If I did that’s admission you did indeed die
In my minds eye you are still right here
Staying with me remaining near
The months soon passed and my son was due
That was the time where I really missed you
The day he arrived wow what a rush
The sound of his cry on my final push
Holding him closely pulling him tight
I was scared to go to sleep that night
I feared he would leave me too
I couldn’t face it after losing you
I lay in bed watching each breath
With an overwhelming fear of death
A voice spoke loudly in my ear
Go to sleep I will watch him dear
In that instant I truly knew
That he was safe being watched over by you
I knew right then that you were my guide
My Mother, my Angel right at my side