This Is What 2 A.M. Does To Me

"I want to write but in the sense that I’m not repeating myself.

In this past year, all I can write about is the ones I should forget in any form and in any emotion.
I feel inspired by some diary entries I have written-those containing of “good memories.” Basically, what set me up for major disappointment.

God, rereading these, I feel so stupid now;
Being trapped,
Confused In the brain-washed tricks that any one of them ever appreciated me in some sense.

I cannot start to reflect the madness I gone through practically alone because of the stomach turning it causes for me.

I cannot reminisce.. I just cannot bare to..."