With or Without you

"I know that I made a mistake when I talk to you. I know there is no way to fix what I have done. I know that I might seem happy but deep down I'm hurt, sad, hate. I know that I shouldn't lie to you but never thought that about me. Why should I care? Why should I care? Why do I waste my time thinking about you, writing about you, calling you, and texting you? I’m done with you and yet why still I lead you on? Why do I do this to myself? I just need to let you go but I can’t see myself without you. The truth is I’m not happy with you but I’m not happy without you.”"