A teenage girl's lament towards life |
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide Soft-spoken, heartbroken, torn up inside Empty from the dreaded pain parasite I wonder if I will ever be alright Drowning in my flood of misery My eyes are sewn shut, I just cannot see My soul is on fire, my heart painted black Must be time to have one more panic attack The world is screwed up, the world is so fake I'm not sure how much more of this I can take It isn't on purpose, I'm not the one to blame I can honestly say I'll never be the same In my sorrow and rage I wrap my hand in a fist And plunge my broken record into my scarred wrist Taking a walk with death, holding his ice cold hand On our way to the city of the damned Nothing to say, nothing to do How can I stay alive if I am not with you Try to look at the bright side, but it's all a blur Not sure how much more of this I can endure Would it be better for you if I was dead Maybe a bullet in the side of my head Would you be happy if I was to disappear Be out of your life, not be anywhere near The light in my eyes is starting to fade In the night to my life a goodbye I bade Against all my sorrow I fight to the end But I don't know how much more of me I'll defend Before my final breath my heart will pound in fright As I drift from my body and see myself turn white If I do die tonight, will my spirit be free Or be trapped on this earth for the whole world to see Nobody to trust, nobody to love I stare with teared eyes to the sky up above Lonely and lost I drift along With a once-loving heart now not so strong My mind's full of pain, my heart's full of sorrow I can't say if I'll be here tomorrow I don't know how in the hell I got lost How much would a bottle of arsenic cost No point in trying, I've lost all hope Let me borrow a nice strong piece of rope Dancing on a field of broken glass I flap my frail wings of sorrow and wax With my cut up legs and my bruised up arms I rely on my own self to protect me from harm So many different ways for me to die The real question is, which one should I try Nothing to hear, nothing to say No point in me living, I'm just in the way I sit in a dark room and flirt with death While taking what may be my very last breath Watching the flames dancing around I feel like the ashes falling to the ground Alone through my life, I can die alone too I just want to know if it matters to you A new plan of action, though not the best kind I know just one thing, it won't clear from my mind I've got nothing left, nothing left to show You think I should try, but what do you know All my hope is lost, all my dreams are gone I won't be here tomorrow in the early dawn There is only one thing left to tell you, my friend I'm sorry to leave you, but this is the end |