July 27th..

Ok so maybe i didn't fuck up things with Gena cus were back on good terms. I'm glad we can always get over out pety arguements, unlike Jenny and I who are always constantly fighting over pety shit. Speaking of Jenny since yesterday mouring we've been broken up, I'm not sure if we gona mke up, but we have a habit of breaking up and making up alot. The reason oh boy, i made the mistake of telling her I'm miserable, she flipped out and said I've been whining about the same shit everyday but damn you think my gf would comfort me, I'm miserable because she's gone. Then she want to go bringing up past fights we been over making herself more angry and upset with me. So she deaded it with me. I didn't fight it, i stopped fighting it a long time ago, i used to be the one always begging for her back but i don't anymore, why beg for someone who don't want you. After a few hrs i decided to go out with Emma, it was great to be out considering with Jenny i can't have my own life. Jenny kept talking to me thuout the day, i kept tryna tell her i can't keep talking to you cus i need time to get over you if this breakup is for good. She keeps saying ok but keeps on bugging me. Then she sends me some xrated pics. She's always tryna tempt me with her body, which is amazing btw. I told her stop she can't be teasing me like that, she apparently was trying to make me feel better. Well i felt worse, looking at this beauitful gurls amazing body, something i can no longer get and is no longer mine. It went on and on til about 5am after the millionth time i said we can't speak anymore. I'm guessing she went to sleep and will be hitting me up again today. Lets wait and see. I do miss her, and love her and yeah I'll take her back, but i refuse to be the one who goes crawling back cus i didn't order this breakup. Sighh



On another note i will be seeing Gena tomorrow. That should brighten up my day. I didn't tell her about Jenny and i breakup cus i don't want her to think I'm only seeing her cus Jennys mad or w.e. She'll find out on her own I'm sure. Today Gena will be with Matt. Ughhhh!! But tomorrow and a few days after she's all mine ^_^. Emma is also coming along with me, she too is having relationship issues. It'll be good to get away for a few. I'm dreading the part where i have to come back to reality.... Til then.. L8erz!