Scarlet and Ivory

Scarlet and Ivory (April 24, 2010)

The winding hour of midnight
Is the dawning of a new nightmare.
Loneliness running rampant
As a pandemic across the world,
Coursing through my veins.
I look in the mirror
And she stares back at me.
Her eyes a blend of jewels,
Sapphire and emerald.
Her deep auburn hair, forced
Into its usual position.
Tears run down her cheeks,
Those lightly colored cheeks…
We both know it is time
For scarlet and ivory.

Moving through the halls
With a delicate stride.
Tonight will be the end
Of the girl who looked at me
When I stared into the mirror.
Down the stairs, and each step
Creaks like an elder’s bones.
Through the dining room
And into the kitchen.
X marks the spot,
And I pull open the chest.
And there, neatly before me,
The stainless steels reside.
I know it is time
For scarlet and ivory.

I take the largest
Of my cold, steely friends,
And bring him to my flesh.
He makes his mark upon me,
Painting the color red.
It is dark, it is deep.
The loneliness pours out
And spills onto the floor.
And my other arm feels
My steel friend’s bite.
The deed is done.
The seconds pass so fast
I can hardly tell the time.
Slowly I am becoming
Scarlet and ivory.

Weakness gets the best
Of me, and I slide to my knees.
My vision is growing dark,
And I wonder how the girl
In the mirror appears now.
The fear begins to come
As my deeds start to sink in.
But the maddening sorrow
Quickly numbs me.
No more fear.
My eyes close.
The pain goes.
And now I am
Remembered as
Scarlet and ivory.