My Identical Twin

MY TWINS DEATH
I had an identical twin. For 28 years, we were never separated. In May 28,1998, we was drinking, partying and yes there the addiction again of prescription medication on my behalf. Her addictions were drinking and doing drugs (smoking weed) occasionally, we both did acid and myth. That particular night we were at Taco Mac and she kept drinking tequila that a mutual friend bought. She was on cocaine as well, which I was not aware of at that time. We had done some weeks earlier, but made promise we both quit and I did so the thought of her being on it was a shock to me when I found out.

On the way home, I remember her being on her getting a page if I guess from her boyfriend. She just started beating me in the face and I kept trying to get her off me. She tried to jump out of my vehicle several times but I stopped her. I kept telling her to quit before, I got pulled over for DUI. Finally after all the beating she succeeded to jump out of my vehicle I ran over her not on purpose to kill her I think I just snapped I don't know really what happened on this part because I have not regain full memory of this accident.

Soon as I knew, I had hit her I put my blazer in park and got under the truck with her. She grabbed my hand and I grabbed hers and we started talking first I couldn’t understand her and I remember telling her to speak plain I couldn’t understand her needless to say she was gurgling I didn't know what part of the truck she was located I just remember her telling me to move the truck it was hurting her. What would u have done? Me I moved the truck; I thought she was under the tire. I got back underneath and she told me several times to move the truck it was hurting her, so I did. The last time we spoke she said "Bell, Bell it is not your fault, but whatever you do not let them split us up if you do one of us will die and it will be me I promised her that. Then the last thing I remember was hearing sirens and I passed out with her. I remember waking up in the hospital and this nurse was beside by bed, she kept saying she’s right behind you that’s all I remembered until I was in the emergency room and I knew she wasn’t behind me I felt to lonely, to empty.

Then they rolled my dad in my room in a wheel chair, he was recovering from a heart attack. I started screaming the doctor was yelling at my dad to hold me down. I done snatched out the IV’s and pumps I actually hated god because she died and I did not. My dad held me down and they gave me a shot. I woke up the next morning with this nurse beside my bed I was on suicide watch. Everybody was in my room then this nurse came by and said I’m so sorry I thought she was behind you. My mom told me they were charging me with DUI and probably vehicular homicide. I remember just as if yesterday I said no I want to die.
THIS IS NOT THE END