My connection with my mom when it comes to love. |
May 22 2010 Heartless Curse the many men that broke my mothers heart. I can not pick or choose because either way i lose. I'm cheating myself out of love. My heart is not cold its just at this constant temperture called old. Constant flashbacks of my little ear against her door listening to her tears. I will never love with an opened mind or a healed heart. From the start of my conception..which was only based on lust and misconceptions my idea of love trust and a real friendship is all fucked up. Fuck the man that wants to make me queen because that same kind of man broke our household chasing a dollar with dream. She loves too hard which makes me love less. Its this same kind of defense that's going to make the best...slip away. He'll slip away like the 3 men that broke her heart. He'll slip away like that bestfriend of her's that sold her favorite pair of sneakers for a rolly and a bag of reefer. I will never love with an open mind or a healed heart because from the start of my conception which was only based on lust and misconceptions my idea of love, trust and a real friendship is all fucked up. Fuck the many men that broke my mothers heart. |