Setting Sun

How long has it been,
Since we last met?
Such a beautiful memory,
It left me.

Despite all the worry we went trough,
We were somewhat happy with our life,
I needed you and you needed me,
We didn't need anything else.

Though now I can't speak to you,
Because of my own stupidity,
I'm sorry for not being a better friend,
While you still were here.

Do you hear me?
I can't say those words but,
My feelings are still intact,
I want to see you.
I can't forget about you,
Nor do I ever want to think of someone else.

«It doesn't hurt that much anymore»
I believed in those words myself,
Thinking that the tears rolling down my face,
Were merely a mistake.

I remember all the days we staid together,
Despite the words of everyone around us,
Without you,
I wouldn't exist.

Even if I have to watch the snow fall a thousand times,
The feelings I have for you won't ever dissapear,
Because you meant so much,
There's a memory of you no matter what.

I still want to see you,
Despite it being me who destroyed you.

I want to know how to feel again,
To not make grief into something huge,
I want you to only see me again,
And save me once more like you once did.

I'm tired,
Of always making grief into fear,
How many times have I suffered,
Due to my own stupid will?
This time I will only feel grief for you,
And sincerely hurt only from that.

I need you,
More than you can ever realise,
But even without you,
I'll be able to live.

I'm going to miss you,
But thanks to you I have hope for the future,
Because I destroyed your chance to live,
I will live for both of us.