Just a little bit of my story.. |
I have so much life to live and so often im so alone. Struggling like most of us, even more so, single parents. I'm so fun and so full of life but living out in the middle of no where, I find myself a little lost at times. I yearn for friends, a life, a partner. As small of a town as I live in the, the women do not treat me with respect because they don't know me. I live on a small farm, about 30 acres, and have many animals including cats, dogs, cows, llamas and even a bird. Considering im a girl from the mid-west and never had any knowledge about anything to do with a farm or farm animals before now, here i find myself, almost 12 years later, with all the animals i have and i think im doing an amazing job with it all. But you know what that doesn't complete someone. My goal of it all was to set a better life for my daughter, we have a great life out here, very comfortable and unique compared to many people's lifes. We are surrounded by so much beauty, and so much simplicity. That's one of the many reasons to bring my daughter out here, so she has experienced so much stuff tht other children wont. I have exprienenced so much as well along with her. i have alot of anger inside, but the beauty and the blessings i have around me washes all of it away. i know i sound down and depressed but my life is so amazing that i would do it all again because i have loved my life so much. sorry for the mispelled words and uncapitalizations, but all through that i am going to tell the truth about not feeling old as i am. I am 51 years old, as of May 4th and sometimes i like just wearing a pair of jeans to make me feel better.. I dont ever feel my age, or for that matter look my age. I like having fun outside with all my critters and daughter. I might have a little too fun or might be a little too sexy, haha, but its all worth while at the end of the day. okay going to have a glass of wine and cool down after my emotional writing. have a wonderful day, and come back soon. -Growing Old With No Age |