Frustrated

I’m frustrated because: 3/10/10

Even though you’re here I feel like a single parent
I get lectures from family and friends telling ME what YOU should be doing
That you don’t want to do anything to help yourself or us
That my head tells me one thing to do but I can’t make myself do it
That everything that has happened I still love you
That I don’t have the courage to really do it all on my own
That you still make me laugh when I’m mad at you
That your mom makes all of this ok for you
That I make it ok for you
That I’ve lost who I am
I don’t know how to find me again
That it’s not going to get better
That I haven’t let you go
That I love you
That’s love isn’t enough