Hidden

I’d discovered something today by reverting back to see how I’ve changed

I know now why I am afraid to lose you

I know now I am the one to blame

in the past I had nothing to bring me down

I had no shame

yet as we know time moves on and the cracks start to appear

not so long ago I continued along that razor

keeping my demons and deteriorations hidden together...

Feel I am not getting my feelings across

and this might be against the rules

but through messages we teach

so treat this as a freedom of speech

with a strange structure as I change tempo

hope you are able to follow my flow...

I need to escape

my never-ending vision

my imperfections, scars and deteriorations transformed through by my mistakes

need happiness within for happiness to show on the out

believe me doesn’t stop there, with enough breath in my chest I’ll rant and shout

this can be sorted, heading towards a new path this old world knows very well

I will not walk down

I’m calling my beliefs crazy for you all, for you all not to follow

as it’s my path to hell

disposing of something real for something manufactured and borrowed

all this to fit in your world

all this to truly be a part of you

but will I let you in?

If I do will you still feel the same

would you let things be?

Or have I blown my chance in not being honest from the beginning

time is running out to keep on hiding

or is it already too late for me?