A brief relationship that opened my eyes to what really matters to me. |
I'm not good at trusting others and I don't think I ever trusted you. Your words were meaningless and your actions, lifeless. Regardless of rational thoughts, I gave you what I had.. not expecting something good nor bad. To have such little emotion towards my feelings not only irritated me, it hurt me. My being upset may have driven you to a place where I imagined you would go all along. The explanations were always rational and possibly true. Yet, the situations that led us there wasn't something I signed up to do. I am aware of how you handle things and how it works for you. But, I just don't work that way and I simply don't want to. Taking time to think about what lies ahead, I realized that this was never what I wanted for myself. As I beat myself trying to figure out my confusion, I started to see where I went wrong. I began to hate myself for neglecting those who stood by me. But I smiled at the fact that it opened my eyes to another road. A road that I was too blind to see. The pain I felt was not caused by you. It was getting a good look at what I was becoming. I don't regret you, for this experience set me free. You were just what I needed in order to get lost and find myself. This is where I belong. |