Broken: The Autumn (Chapter 1)

It was dark, cold and I was walking on my own. I'm used to walking to places on my own now that the boyfriend has moved out. I enjoy it, walking on my own that is, it gave me a lot of time to think about things thoroughly and in detail. It clears my head. When I go past shops especially down 'The Lanes' I can't stop thinking about the future and what it has to bring me. I try to picture myself with those things I see, especially when I walk past a shop selling baby things. It makes me excited and giddy to picture myself in a happy home with my husband and newborn. All the excitement and love, I can't wait! All the things I'm capable of and what I can do. I'm still young so I want to experience life in a much broader world of vision before I even start having children. I can't think about that now but I do. Thinking about having children just makes me very excited about the future, it's keeps me going, I guess.

It felt like it was really late but that's because I'm just tired, I guess.