Razorblade Kisses

I did it again, I let him
He kissed my skin
I couldn’t help it
I felt him go harder
Then watched the blood fall
I said I wouldn’t let him
I was going to change
But as the tears fell
And the blood ran down
Down my unfeeling arm
I was relieved of all my tension
My anger faded slowly
Inner pain started to melt away
I know I should have stopped
That you didn’t approve of him
But I needed him again
To kiss me one more time.
The blood is drying
Tears have subsided
While he lays there in my puddle,
Waiting for the time again
When I need his kiss.
I swear I wont
Take his kiss again
But that’s another empty promise,
Like ones I hear all the time,
That Ill break over and over
Ill try really hard
To resist his cold, hard kiss
But I need him one more time
To kiss me to sleep.