Never

What if I'm not strong enough
to stay away from it for good?
What if I can't just say no
even though I know I should?

I've been a failure all my life
I'm afraid I'll always be.
What exactly shall I do
if it's put in front of me?

Will I be weak and give right in
or will I be able to turn and run?
Will it cause me to slobber and drool
or will it affect me none?

I must, for once, believe in me
and allow myself to prevail.
I know it would only take one time
to send me reeling straight back to Hell.

Staying away is what I will do
and I will do that 'til I die.
I make this promise to myself –
never again will I get high.