Tired

tired of this

my life gets old sometimes,
same old shit.
times like this make me wanna stop,
and say i quit!
everything aorund me keeps falling apart,
ive even learned to break my own heart.
i cant sleep at night from the constant yelling,
all this shit being thrown at me is causin my brain swelling.
please make it stop please.
i hear valuable things breaking,
falling to the ground.
i hate the screaming,
i hate the sound.
i turn my music up louder,
to drown it out.
no matter how loud i go,
i hear it all echoing.
my life is repetitive, a movie that keeps gettin rewound.
i cant be happy no matter what i do,
im a good actress i fool you though.
you may think my life is sweet and easy,
just give it a try, see its not breezy.
i get tired of crying, i get tired of trying.
i want everyone else happy. i do what i can.
but in the end i get thrown down, deep into the sand.
i hate this, i hate it all.
why does everything go wrong?
my life cant even start by bein written in a simple song.
give me a break, i beg of you.
set me free, i need something new.
im tired of this and im tired of all of you.
im beyond help now, nothing you can do.
hurting is all i do now,
nothing can change it, no way, no how.
do what u will, but i wont ever be the same.
im tired of playin this fuckin game.
ive lost, its too late.
really all i can do is jsut sit an wait,
but wait? wait for what?
nothing, thats what.