The Glass of my Life

Looking with their evil eyes,
Watching past their faces.
It's not that life is one big race,
It's just that my disgrace is growing again.

It's not that I don't love you,
But because I am afraid,
Will you step a little too far,
While I'm way behind you.

Please...let me makes decisions,
Without you watching me, controlling what I do.
I'm right here, and I've already lost,
What will you say to me, and what is the cost?

I don't need your help to live,
I've lost enough already, the fire is going to die,
Will you just look into my eyes,
And tell me why this is all a disguise.

I have always wanted to belong with the King,
Now that he's dead, my heart will be fed!
It's only time until the eagle's cry burns my memories,
Until I leave...

Look at me! See all in me,
I have become not what you need.
It is the truth, my friend,
you'll never need me again...!

See...all....see everything,
My mind...is blocked, by torment.
That. You. Feed. It. To. Me...why. Why?

Look me into my eyes,
Tell me that I have failed again,
Should I understand the feeling...
Now and forever...love...

Anger is my only key now,
The only thing left---I have to survive!
Please, if you're so kind, put locks on my mind,
I do not wish to think like this.

The only thing I had ever wanted was to be happy.
But, locked in my prison gates, I do not see,
Light is keeping me in, killing me,
I wish to stay in the shadows...pull me away!

You can't see me, try to find me,
But I'm hiding in the stars,
You'll never find me in my sky,
I'll get lost here...

Desert sands are my waking paradise,
Never to feel again...
Drink the water, end with dry tongue,
But I don't think it's the desert that's fake...

I'll be a ghost in your masquerade,
Never to be seen, only to see,
Those have been acting for their lives,
But now I'll finally see them...

No more pleasure to meet my paradise,
It's all over, gone forever...

Tears that fall on my page,
I'm trying so hard for success,
So why aren't you giving it...
I'll never win but I...can't afford to lose again.

They left me behind,
Abandoned me for evil things,
I was alone, drowning in a pond,
I can't focus...what's the message?

What will you try to say when I don't love you anymore,
hopefully laughter will live through you
Only causing you pain,
I'm departing here...

I've found a new home for my heart,
While I ventured the desert,
all I could find was you,
Have my heart...take my heart.

Barefoot across the empty path,
I belong here as the wind pushes me forward,
Sound crashes from above,
I turn and run away from myself.

The pictures show me dancing on the clouds,
with the eagle and the dove,
The trees sway their leaves when I see them,
Through the Glass of my Life I break.

Give me back what I have lost,
I don't care what is the cost.

I watch the melodies flow,
Day after day I make him suffer,
He made a bad decision,
Wasn't my will, but now it's love.

Dreaming---my only creation,
Slowly turning into devastation,
Fires burn into my head,
Kill me and end it...just bring down the sword.

Looking through my lost eyes,
Now it's my only disguise to hide,
Try and see me through the lies---you're weak!
What a battle to fight, with no challenge.

I had called you my hero,
Now I'm not so sure,
Look into my sickened being,
Help me find the cure...

The pictures told me to dance on the clouds,
While looking through the Glass of my Life,
So cold, like stone, standing before me.

Punch the mirror, it will not break!
Only show yourself in time...
Look what you've become...
Look what you've become...

Try not to look at the past 'cause I'm trying to destroy it,
Destroy me, yet you try and talk me out of it,
Desert feels cool under your hot anger.

Look at the Glass of my Life,
Going crazy with fear,
The cliff is so near...
Pull me away. Save me.

I know that I'm going to die here,
Hopefully in your arms,
So I can dance on the clouds with the angels,,
So I can. Break. the Glass...

Trapped in a cage with nothing but my thoughts,
No better form of torture,
I will never be myself again,
Please, help me! Help me be freed from myself!

Sleep is the only way to escape,
but I still witness reality's decisions,
There is no magic in my dreaming,
There is nothing anymore.

The pen is bleeding from writing too much,
Do you understand me, why do you understand me?
Underestimate them, no. They'll kill you.

Help me unfold the Glass in my Life,
Tell me I still have the time,
I try to be a poet but I don't want to hurt you,
My words do not harm but watch out for the soul in them.

Silence, my best friend for the world.

Gazing across the fields,
Look what I've become in here,
Endless lands stretched out before me,
but I'll never see peace in my eyes.

Dancing on the beach of crystal lakes,
Stare to the clouds above me,
Roaming the skies with power,
Help me be like them.

A wish for the stars, I see naught but myself,
In their eyes, I see echoes of monsters.
Beasts who defy their masters,
Bowing to no one. Listen to no one.

Travel across the barren oceans,
Hear the call of the crows,
Hear me sing, listen to my cries,
Look into my tearful eyes.

Tell me it'll be alright,
Don't feed lies, just explain,
Explain to me that it's just a summer song,
A song to sing...

There it stands, the Glass of my Life.
Watch it fall,
As it shatters into pieces.

Each piece a part of me...

And I...I am free...