tree

Tree

In the silence of my mind, striving for a better life to find.
I stare up at the tree of life petrified, filled with anger.
Reminded of the morbid shame.
The guilt filling me with times of hurt.
I cry, I really wanted to try that time.
Forgiveness seemed out of reach.
In the silence of my mind I start to climb.
Leave all the past bullshit behind.
I know there is so much more in life to find.
Stop trying to fill the voids.
Being made by by soul hurting to rewind.
I stop and cry, I really wanted to love those times.
The tree seems smaller when I take the second look.
I know there are many more cries to follow.
Overcome this bitterness that created this silent hallow.
I have got to be strong in my mind, hold my health close, with life in mind.
Open my soul to let it fill with whatever God has in store.
In the silence of my mind I continue to climb.
I cry, wanting to try this time.
I sigh, wanting to know why the top seems so far away.
I have my health close in my, my soul opened wide for whatever God has in store.
Why do I continue to ask for more?
In the silence of my mind I hear for the first time.
It is not the top of the tree that I fear, or reaching the top.
It seems so far away.
It was the next branch of change that is so new, I fear I will not make it threw.
I see faith in my reach.
The sorrow will not be gone tommoro; But God will be there to carry me.
I begin to realize, that in my sorrow and past regrets, i will not find the forgets.
They are my strength to carry on climbing this tree of life.
Fear and regrets are the strength? I sought.
I realize I will always want to know more.
That should not give me shame, or cast out nasty blame.
Faith and Love are in my future to claim.
My soul feels warm with a confident glow.
I have so much more to look forward to.
A destiny that God has in store.
I can do my best.
I sigh, I am really going to try this time.
In the silence of my mind I continue to climb.