What I've seen

In the 15 years that I have lived I have seen a lot of hate. Gangs ruled my old neighborhood. I had to learn at a young age that being seen around the wrong person can get you beat, wairing the wrong color can get you shot, and talking back to the wrong person can get you killed. I was raised around it I just thought it was normal to have to run from differnt people constently. I was 11 when I saw Jenny not only my best friend but also my Uncle Steves girlfriend get shot and killed. She was only 13 and she was taken away from her daughter Anhelica who wasn't even a year. Steve is only a year older then me but he took care of Anhelica after Jen died. The night she was shot was the night I realised this isn't normal. It could have been me shoot they were probaly aiming for me. After that steve wouldn't let me or Anhelica out of the house he may only be a year older then me but he always treated me like I needed protecting. When I had to leave and I mean absolutly had to I had to have a knife with me. Things were getting out of hand the gangs were killing left and right. It wasn't even a gang fight anymore it was an all out war. They were out for blood and they didn't care who's. The ones that useto stick together like familys were turning on there own brothers. Nobody seemed to see it but I did and I tryed to stop it but I fell in love with the most dangerous leader there was. I was only 13 and he was 16 only 3 years difference between us. When Steve found out he was mad he said loving the one I loved could get me killed like Jen got killed but I was stupid and ignored him a week later he was killed trying to protect me Anhelica only 2 at the time and didn't have a mom or dad I had to break up with the one guy I loved and talked my mom into moveing the family away from that city because it is dangerous. Plus there are to many bad memorys I never want to go back she agreed and now we're safe but at what cost? Jen one of my bestfriends and future aunt is gone forever along with Steve her boyfriend and the one that always protected me even till the end. All they left on this earth was there baby girl Anhelica. I've been safe for 2 years but those nightmares still come back evey night and I don't think they'll ever stop.