Unleashed

I have done the unimaginable I have let him in. I have given him the secrets that makes me sooth. I have given him the power to be cruel. He knows what hurts. he knows how to make me cry. He knows how to make my self-esteem drop way below the line. He knows how to make me loose control, oh-oh This time I have gotten too deep, this time I have made a mochary of me.
I dont know how to be. Enough should be the words you unleash, sometimes I can't speak. I just say this is how he does me. Let off the steam the pressure you claim to hold, love me and then let go,but treat your family so true there's nothing you won't do. that place they share,.
owe I swear to have of my own someone who will love me so unconditionally holding me safe and secure always checking in making sure. But have the best is what we endure there's got to be glory ahead did my doing become so bad that thy lord has held me in vain has he tooken away my joy and replaced it for pain. My heart has been frozen and then thawled before,and each time I say I'am for sure.
This time I pray thy saviour deliver me pure,and heal my touch fulfill my love I'am drained I have given what I can the more I say the more I push him away.
So I keep my distance will the void be enough in the same home but on a different zone. I just dont know some nights I just cry my compaion my motivatior has gone goodbye no more him and I. Am I writing out my future of what I pray not to be this is the same man whom said he would marry me ,and I believed so I say did I believe in the wrong thing, I know my source I cant help but praise for everything no matter how deep it may be I mean were gonna make it is what I believe even if it's just our daughter and me........still broken....and now ashamed.............