Thinking of You

      That summer was the best,
it was something fun & new,
I know I’ll never forget,
all of those memories,
I now have with u.
      I know u don’t think about those times much,
or even if you ever do,
I know I shouldn’t think about those things,
I know I shouldn’t think about u.
      My friends tell me it’s okay,
and that I should,
I want to believe them,
but I doubt I ever could.
      Now I spend my time occupying myself,
with busy and unnecessary things,
I won’t let myself think of u,
It’s true I love the memories,
but not the pain they bring.
      But when the T.V goes off,
and the book comes to an end,
when there’s nothing left to do,
my thoughts quickly drift back to u.
      Then the pain starts to come,
I begin to wish u were here,
I’ll send you an email or two,
not really expecting a response,
because I don’t know exactly,
what u want to hear.
      When I listen to that song,
that chorus,
and the memories flood in,
I try to pretend im okay,
but I guess the emotion on my face,
won’t let me win.
      With u in my dreams,
and u in my thoughts,
I feel so stupid,
because I know that closer than friends,
is what we’re not.
      So, why can’t I stop liking you?
Why is this so hard?
I barely ever see u,
I’m trying to read my cards.
      My friends say that im in love,
seriously in love with u,
I try to lie to myself,
because deep inside,
I know the real truth.