For All you Could be

Her mind spun in a slow clunky motion and her body pitched forward causing her hands to come up defensively despite the fact that she was stood still on steady ground. She couldn't move, trapped inside the swirling insanity of her own mind on the outside the only thing that gave her away was the deep set panic that glinted in her eye. There was a small voice, right at the back of the brain that was trying to make itself heard, the sane one, the one that she should have been listening to instead of letting emotion take ahold of her. She should be doing something else right then, of that she was pretty sure. But what? Just a few minutes ago everything was set, nothing could have gone wrong. Confidence had been her middle name and yet here she was, yes just her now, in this chaos that had been created in simply seconds.

She shook her head, hoping that would dispell the emotional cobwebs. She had to focus, what was done was done and now she needed to get back into the game for her own survival. Nope, it wasn't working. Damn damn damn. Focus, aim, shoot...her mind was now screaming instructions to her at random. Words flitting through her brain at such speed that her limbs didn't have enough time to respond to their meaning. Focus, aim, shoot. At what!? Focus, aim, shoot...it wasn't coming, she couldn't do it and yet the figure was bearing down on her now. It was her turn, why the hell had her arms become too weak to take action. Focus, aim, shoot, focusaimshoot, focusaimshoot. Everything began melding into one as panic clamped tight round her chest making it hard to breath. Her vision began to blur into one and before she truly knew what was going on she just went black altogether.

"Hey! Wake up girlie. Its time you should be moving now" this voice was penetrating through the darkness, trying to yank her out with cold evil hands. She whimpered slightly and tried to pull away from it. Why would she want to go back there? It wasn't that she couldn't remember, oh her cruel mind would let her forget nothing. This was the reason why she wanted nothing more to do with the world, would have been quite happy to just slip away painlessly right then and there. But alas this voice seemed determined on getting her to come back. Goddamnit why couldn't everyone just leave her alone?