It's a song that I wrote for my mother. Pay attention to the lyrics |
Sometimes I have dreams, I couldn't tell you what they mean Till the point where I wake up at night and I scream And I sit there dazed then I think to myself How different my life would be if I still had your help If I had you here there wouldn't be any tears And I regret having the fear, in letting you know how much I really care Because it's starting to really tear to the point where im pulling out me hair I still remember the night we all was driving in the car For a late night ride and we went pretty far And then you told was what the doctor said you told us what he did How he told you "Your just having slight migrains in your head" But I knew that it was not completely true because there was something different about you from the mom that I knew and later on around christmas was when I found out the full extent of your sickness............It was cancer The news hit me hard to the point I couldn't stand up This was the time in my life where it got rough You were back and forth, in and out the hospital for weeks at a time and at first it was fine But then it got to the point were I worried my mind Thinking about you, worrying if my momma was fine Months later, I thought it was time for you to tell the hospital see you later..... but I guess I was wrong But I guess I was right Because you went back to the hospital that same night But you never came back And after that there's a crack the will never fill back And no crazy glue or duck tape could ever fix that And I would miss all the times that I would go to sleep with you in the bed everynight because I was too scared of mines Or that day I played baseball and I struck out to end off the game...then I felt I was the blame And I cried my little eyes feeling ashamed You comformed me, telling me it was ok What about dinosaurs? You knew they were my heart I remember you taking me to the movies to see Jurassic Park All the secrets that I told you becuase I knew you wouldn't tell Or those late night ice cream stops at carvel Or when you took us for a ride in your bus after work Or you yelling at me for not washing my favorite shirt Or the time I left the bathroom filled with clay sculpts Then you washed your face with one of them thinking it was soap Or the blue coffee mug that was used for drinking beers I still got it on my shelf it's been sitting there for years Or when we woke up in the morning always at the same time Me for school and you for work right before sunshine Mann, those was the days but now there living in the past We all miss them, and we all enjoyed them while they last But until that day comes and it will We could sit back reminisce on the times and just chill So until then, I will always rep you loud Sit back and watch over me while I make you proud. |