Reflection

NEGATIVE MEMORIES DESTROY MY HAPPINESS LIKE THE INTERNAL FIRES OF HELL BURN CONDEMNED SOULS. MY MENTALITY WHISPERS VILE ILLUSIONS OF SELF INFLICTED PAIN, MY HEART TWISTED, LONELY AND COLD. HATREDS SICK DESIRE FOR DESTRUCTION INFLUENCES MY MORBID DREAMS FOR PAIN, IMMORTALITY BECOMES MY ONLY BELIEF. SILENCE THE HAUNTING CURSE OF DEMONS, WITHIN HOLDS FANTASIES, INEVITABLE DEATH, MAY I REST IN PEACE. SUICIDAL TENDENCIES, BIBLICALLY JUSTIFIED, ONE PRAYER, FOR ALL I ASK IS THE PACIFICATION OF MY SINS. COMPENSATE FOR ALL THE INTERNAL SCARS INFLICTED BY OTHERS, LIQUIDATE ALL MEMORIES AND SIMPLY WASH MY HANDS. MY DEMENTED PERSONA PORTRAYS A SINFUL EQUATION, MOCKING THE LORDS, COMMANDING THEY CEASE TO EXIST. WITH ONE ROLL IM CASTING LOTS, THE GOSPELS SOLD, A DOUGHTING THOMAS, LABELED A HYPOCRITE. WHAT I BELIEVED WAS LOVE TAUGHT ME TO HATE, FOR HATE NOW CONTROLS MY ONLY REASON TO LOVE. SIX FEET DEEP BECAME MY DESTINATION, THOUGH NOT FINAL, MY WRATH, ASHES TO ASHES, DUST TO DUST. THE PAST ONCE AGAIN BEFORE ME, TO HURT TO CRY, THOUGH I SECRETLY SEEK TO FEEL THE WETNESS OF MY TEARS. TO FINALLY JUSTIFY THE SELF INFLICTED PAIN, I WITNESS EVERY WAKING MOMENT WHILE CHALLENGING THAT REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR.