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i ran from my past
i ran from my god
i ran just to run
to create a facade
to pretend that the life that i tore into shreds
was no part of the life where i made my new bed
but i fucked up
i missed you
we kissed in my mind
and i hated you for being right the whole time
'cause some bridges are iron
and mortar
and steel
and they can't be burned down
and they'll always be healed
soon or later
we're greater than justice
and stronger than pain
we've exchanged so much jealousy
now it's a name for
"pick me"
and i do
and i'm sorry i'm late
but i'm hoping that you can look past my mistakes
to my heart
and my parts that you can't live without
no matter how flawed
or riddled with doubt
'cause i don't know the future
i don't know my place
but i know when i dream
i can still see your face
clear as day
can you honestly say
that you don't see me too?
i'm so certain you do
though i know that i'm not
quite the girl that you knew
i am bigger, and brighter, and better these days
still a terror in winter
but you'd be amazed
how i blossom in spring
and i'm green when you're red
and i'm blue when you're yellow
i glow when you're near
then i wrap you in mellow
we're so complementary
that isn't wrong
though i once thought two lovers
should sing the same songs
and we don't
no not always
but sometimes we do
and there's comfort in that
and there's joy in it too
and i'm swarmed by the suitors
but only see you
so come home to me
hold me
and say that you do
pick me too

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FALLING STILL
you think you understand this time
you always thought you did
you think i fell away from him
then fell for you again
perhaps you think that i am pining
bet you think that i'll move on
and i am flighty and uncertain
what if just this once you're wrong?
what if i have every song you'll ever need
inside of me?

i'm sure she's great, and maybe fragile
babe, i know you love her too
and it would hurt to break her heart
but that's what hearts were made to do
sometimes
and just 'cause mine's been shot to hell
don't mean that i don't need you too
there's justice, then there's destiny
and sometimes we just have to choose
and i chose wrong so long ago
but does that mean we both should lose
again?

oh i could write a sky for you
and i could make it glow
i bet i could uncross these stars
uncut these scars
and make you know i'm right
but i don't wanna fight that fight
no matter how i wish it so

so if you like the status quo
and if you love her best
then say your life is blessed
and cut this cord
and just ignore the signs we've seen
or don't believe in signs at all
and say that love at seventeen
is just another way to fall
then brush it off like dirt
sure, it'll hurt me for a while
but i'll still smile at memories
once i can smile again

then tell them all i'm crazy
and obsessive
and too stained
and say it like it pains you just to know
you knew me when
but baby, keep that heart in check
oh don't you wreck this lover too
i know that's what you tend to do
when i am sneaking through your head
so just forget the things i've said
if this is it for me and you