There

Am I more lost than before
or was I never even here?
Caught in the crossfade
Lost in another world
Stuck between reality and insanity
Am I pushing the edge
or climbing to the top?
Never really knowing
Never actually sure
But why even guess
Has it ever been worth it?
To wonder if Im really here
Would I be happier if I actually was?
Or am I already sure
Sure if its even what I want
To be in a world with so many dos and donts
So many rights and wrongs
You can never be perfect
But they wont allow you to be you
So my question is...
Is my insanity actually reality
and am I already there?