A Soul Promise

I never realized, just what it meant
To make a promise, and have it kept.
All those times I begged and pleaded,
Promising you I would change the way you were treated.
I have promised to stop, slow down and just quit
But all of those times, didn't mean spit.
As I look at your face, with tears running down
I know its my fault, because Im never around
They say I have a problem, and yes its true
And it needs to be fixed, this I must do
I thought Ihad control, but it has controlled me
But now its time to be in power, time to be free
I have a gift, not many have
A second chance to be a loving husband, and a great dad
I cannot expect you all to agree
But I can change, just watch and see