How Do I Change?

How do I change?
Who I am,
Who I want to be.
How do I change it?
You ask me to change...
But, I can't change who I am.
You of all people should know.
You of all people should know what I am feeling...
And, yet...You don't...
You leave me,
Standing there in the rain.
Why should I care about you...
You never cared about me.
You lied and you cheated,
You left me alone,
You left me for dead...
I thought you would come back.
I hoped you would come back.
I hoped you would tell me everything I wanted to hear...
And that you would hold me tightly,
And say everything was alright.
I waited a day,
A month,
A year,
I would wait a century just for you...
All this waiting,
And you haven't came back...
When will you return?
I started with a dream,
A flicker of hope.
I am now left with a broken dream,
A empty heart,
That last hope gone...
My heart stopped beating,
Even though my heart beat just for you.
My heart longs for your return...
Even though I know you aren't coming back.
I shake my head now,
Thinking of how foolish I was...
Why did I fall in love with you?
Why did I trust in you?
Believe in you?
Now, tell me...
How do I change?