When is the turn around?

They say what goes around comes around, but for people like me, it never came "back around". I guess giving out good fortune and luck to people doesnt mean anything, caring, appreciating ones feelings and needs, means nothing. Pretty much all my life I've gave out to other people that I guess didn't deserve it. The first one - We fell deep in love and stayed together for 1 year and 2 months.. 2 long months. By the 7th month I knew we'd break up, I didnt want to deal with it. Hey? Someone loves me ! I have someone who loves me, how often does this happen?. But me the one who always has to stand up for other people. I knew he wasnt happy, he hated being with me, but he loved being in love. Since then I've felt lonely, not just romantically, just lonely. I felt like my family, friends, school, didnt matter, nothing could make me happy.

I was stripped from my innocence and I lay there naked.


There is only so much a person can take, especially me, I'm still a child.

What the point of this is, if you have emotional problems, dependancy problems, dont get in a serious relationship when your 15 and let someone brain wash you.

I dont wish anyone to experience the kind of feelings I've felt so young.