I have everything yet nothing

everything yet nothing.

crowded yet alone.

happy yet sad.

perfect yet imperfect.

serene yet tumoil.

bright yet dark.

filled yet empty.

I guess this is how people feel when they have everything they want,
I guess this is the curse that all people who are given anything they want have to live with,
I guess being fortunate and having everything has its negative side too,
life can't be perfect, though it seems to be so...

I wonder if all the "fortunate" people feels this way. Having everything they could ever want, but actually have nothing at all.

I have everything.

YET.

I'm still missing something. Since a long time ago... That empty feeling that never disappeared and can never be erased. Since that person died...

can't ever forget, YET, forgotten.

Lots of things have changed since then..

My life turned from imperfect to perfection.
Actually it didn't, my perspective of life just changed.. Really.

It is a wonderful feeling. The "enlightenment" of life. When darkness can be sunshine, when sadness becomes joy, when bad becomes good. Not many get to experience this.

I guess it is because in order to experience real true joy, one has to experience death, saddness, sorrow, go to the depths of hell itself and still return in one piece. It's great. A feeling that completes a person...

Yet. I'm missing something, since that day that he disappeared... Urgh. feel like crying all over again. URGH!