You are always on my mind

Maybe I can’t see you
Maybe my glasses are dirty
How beautiful you seem in my head
But searching for you isn’t far ahead
The real you is so unreal here
Like I see you very well
But yet when I look you aren’t near
Why am I so sad?
You are beside me
But only when I close my eyes
Opening it makes me cry
Where have you gone?
Why I can only see you when my eyes are shut
I need a chance to meet you
To see you and talk to you
You are just the illusion in my brain
The loved and hated person
The adored and abandoned
Why am I so lost without you?
Because actually there is no you
You are my own creation
The indescribable except for my self
Oh, well what can I say?
Say cry for there is no reason why
Why wouldn’t I cry?
If u exist only in my heart!
No other words have to be said
That’s enough because am getting so blue
But at least I said to you
How much I do deeply love you
………….
You are always on my mind!