Poetry written within the last year

Hi there Thanks for viewing and hopefully reading some of my most recent poetry. Alot of these poems/songs are inspired from my past abusive relationship. It took every part of me to gain the courage to leave. And when i finally did i felt more alive than i have ever felt. I was free and just grateful i learned to say goodbye to my past and hello to my blossoming future. So like i was i always ask please be kind with your reviews lol
well enjoy taking a trips into my mind for awhile!!




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....NEW START....


I don’t ever wanna feel that way again
I won’t ever be the same again

I had fear in my eyes
And fear in my heart

It’s the time for a brand new start
All alone without you
Feeling so many worlds apart

It’s so raw inside
It hurts to even breathe at times
But then I feel so alive
But then I feel so alive

The sky is open wide
The stars within my reach
Endless Possibilities

The fog is gone
I see clearly now
Your true colors shining down on me
Now I know that we were never meant to be
Now I know we were never meant to be

I woke up took a look around realized life has passed me by.
And knew that this is my time, my time to shine.
I opened my eyes, and see the light finally.
Please step aside, and let me be.
It took a long time, but I figured it out, that all I need is me.
Have you ever felt like your living someone else’s life, well I did deep down inside.
Now I rise to the surface, and felt alive.
Thank God I woke up from this nightmare of a ride.
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....SEA OF DECEPTION....


Standing on land
Drying off from the swim of my life
I was thrown overboard into the roaring tides of deceit and lies
Who knew I would get swept away into the sea of deception
I almost drowned in all your lies
But I came out alive

I am so angry I could spit
All of your fucking shit
Back in your face
Put you in your place
But I am not like you
I will never wade along with you in the shallow end
It’s funny how I thought you were my friend

Now let’s rewind to a drier time
Where the sun was gleaming down on me
I was running and racing to a final destination
But I was burning with desperation
Walking thru the lonely desert in the sun
I was tired oh so tired
And was starting to believe
All by myself
All by myself
Would that fate of mine be done?

Then I saw you this lovely sight to see
You came and saved me from the lonely desert of time
But to my surprise I was walking alone all these years
With this crazy mirage by my side
Why is it I always attract?
These people who like to act

So now I see plain as day who you are
And nothing can make me stay
So off I go pursuing the life I want
Hopefully the path I chose leads me to the real man I deserve that’s full of truth
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....IS LIFE TOO HARD?....


Have you ever felt like life is too hard?
I do …
I need a break from me
This crazy state of mind makes me feel weak
I am feeling like a major freak

So where can I get a deserved vacation from my thoughts and obligations?
I need a lil less of me and more of you to help me get on thru

I feel like I’m always wrong and I’ll never belong

So I need a break from me
Come on come on
Give me a break from me

I feel like I could die from all the pain inside
I wanna spread my wings and fly away from all the hurt I want to get away help me get away from me

I don’t want to fail
I don’t wanna fall
I feel like I can’t make it on my own
I wish I knew how to fake it
So I could finally make it
Why do I keep falling in that same damn hole on that same damn street
I wish I learned by now

So come on come on
Give me a break from me
I don’t know how to make my mind feel free
Constant agony

But I know inside I gotta keep on going I know I can do it
I know I have to try and try to live my life right
Hopefully I will learn how to deal and get thru with all of me
Just plain ole me

So come on come on come on
I know I can do it
And I will get thru it
I just gotta try

Have you ever felt like life is too hard
Well I do…
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....FAMILY FRUSTRATION....


Sweet salty tears rolling down my face makes me wonder if these wet warm drops of emotion are worth it for which I am crying for

These hurtful expressions of pain and frustration is all I have to show for my anger and pain I go thru

The situation at hand feels as if I am constantly in a repeat mode of chaos never to be balanced and free again

Hope is something I am trying to grasp and continue to hold on to making some sense from this confusion

Love is a never ending battle of pain and heartache please I surrender to this everlasting struggle we call a family …
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thanks for reading I would love hear what you think so please send me comments!