Note to Self

Note to Self

The experience of life can leave one lost.  Lost mind perhaps?  Not sure.  It's hard to understand why life can be so hard for some, yet seemingly easy for others.
I want to be famous, get noticed, but it's hard to do.  I post videos online, they take long for people to notice.  I write things online, still it's hard to get noticed.  I need money, why does it not come right away?
Being in debt is too much of a part of life for me.  I need more.  I want to be free!  When do I get paid more so I can be free?  It stinks.
Sometimes life seems like a giant bottomless garbage can  which I fall through endlessly.  When will the time of trial end?