To My Lover

To My Lover,

      My darling please forgive me.
      I want you to know that I love you, but I have to go. It is the hardest thing I have to do is to tell you that I am leaving. I want to stay but we both know that it is not the right thing to do.
      When we first got to together I knew that I would fall in love with you and now that I have, I don't know what to do. He doesn't know about you and I want to keep it that way. I want to stay with you both but we both know it can't be that way.
      I will always remember the fisrt time we touched and the passion that erupted that night. The way you held me after, you made me feel so secure and safe. Laying there wrapped up in your arms, there are no words to describe how I felt. I can still smell the sex in the air. Everytime I think about you it makes me smile. I remember everything we have shared together. Each kiss, each look, each touch. I remember the first time we kissed. I went straight to cloud nine and never returned. Your kiss still lingers on my lips. Your touch, I still feel on my skin. You touched me like no man has ever done before. The look in your eyes when you hold me close lets me know that you are mine and I am yours. But the look you give me when our time is over lets me know you will miss me until we meet again. We try to see eachother as much as we can. Sneacking away and meeting in secret. Making up reasons to leave and meet. I can't go on living a lie.
      I am in love with two men. Each of you are different in your own way.
      I have loved you forever and always will. You have held my heart in the palm of your hand for thirteen years and him only seven. You know everything about me, every mood, every smile and he only knows when I am upset. I wish we had gotten in touch sooner than later. I have so much at risk and I can't keep up this double life.
      You and I have a connection that can never be broken. I will love you til the end of time, I always have,but I have a family with him. I can't turn around and leave eveything I have in hope that we work.
      My darling please don't be mad.
      You will always be in my heart and in my mind but it is time for us to say goodbye. I love you now and I loved you then, I will love you always. Please don't hate me for this but it is time for us to end. Always know I will never forget you for as long as I live and love you til the end.

      Love you now and love you always,
                      Me