HAUNTING PAST

I LOOK DOWN THAT PATH THAT WE ALL CALL MEMORY LANE,

WHAT I SEE IS NOT EASY TO RELIVE MY PAIN....

I TRY SO HARD TO BE THIS BETTER MAN,

IT SEEMS HOPELESS AT TIMES I DONT THINK I CAN...

IM LIKE A ROCK AT THE BOTTOM OF THE SEA IM SUNK,

I FEEL WORTHLESS AT TIMES WHEN I SEE MYSELF IM JUNK...

A SOUL STRUGGLES TO FIND ITS PLACE,

MINE IS EMPTY JUS LIKE A GLASS CASE...

IM SO CONFUSED AM I YANG OR AM I YIN,

WHY IS IT I FEEL MY SOUL WILL NEVER FINDS ITS TWIN...

MY FAITH IN LOVE IS SLOWLY FADING,

OR AM I GOIN TO DIE ALONE? IM  PATIENT AND WAITING...

I ONLY KNOW I HAVE NO REGRETS OF WHO I AM AND WHAT I BECOME,

I ONLY WISH GOD GAVE ME A COUPLE MORE YEARS SO A FATHER COULD BE WITH HIS SON!!!

MY SADNESS AND PAIN MAKES ME SO SPIRITUAL AND LYRICAL,

BUT IF I COULD GO BACK IN TIME I'D RATHER BE HAPPY AND UNORIGINAL...

BUT I CANT CHANGE WHAT I NOW ACCEPTED,

BUT IF THERE WAS A CHANCE FOR ME TO BE HAPPY IT SURELY WILL BE ATTEMPTED...

I KNOW FOR EVERY STRUGGLE THERE IS A BLESSING,

FOR WHEN THERE IS LIFE, THERE IS SOMEONES FINAL RESTING...

MY SOUL IS STILL TO YOUNG TO BE FEELING SO OLD,

MY HEART IS TO WARM FOR MY BRAIN TO THINK SO COLD...

IM FEELING SO STRAINED WHEN IM DEEP IN THOUGHT,

BUT ALL MY SOUL CONCENTRATES ON IS SADNESS AND DREAM MY FEARS HAUNT.......