Motionless Daydreams of you

I am here right now and I think of how I used to be kind
And how you were once in time..

I can feel the wind rush over me now
I seem so inviting like I was once before but it is this I will not allow

Sometimes I hold my head in my hands waiting for my tears to pause
Thinking of you always helps because

I will stand still and motionless waiting for eternity
I will surrender to you all of my energy

Try, try ,try is what I must do
For it is you that I choose

I don’t want to wait another day
Inside I can not help my feelings will not go away

I wonder if this is healthy in a logical way?
Perhaps someday I will find my thoughts astray

While I sit and write things I never thought would be said
These things I may not always be able to keep in my head