All in my head.

It hurts.
And I can't escape.

Everyone is worried about me,
Yet no one is listening.
They think that the docs will make it better
that they have the cure.
All they have done is made the problem more obvious.

I used to be hyper,
Now I can't seem to move.
How am I to live like this?

I couldn't think before
but I had the energy to move.
Now I can think
but have no energy to do what needs to be done.

Am I to trade one for the other?
Is this what God had invisioned for me?
To live a life never knowing which way to turn?

I used to block what hurt me and hide from it.
Eventualy, I thought those problems had gone away.
Now they're back and in my face
I have no where to run.

My dreams are where I hide.
As long as I'm asleep I don't hurt.
But I know that I have to face them at some point.
But how am I to face something that won't let go,
That won't let me move?

My brain is blank for the most part now.
Were before it wouldn't stop going.
I have no answers for these problems that I have.
Just people yelling at me.

But how do you move on when you're hurting this bad,
And your brain can't do anything about it but scream.

I just don't know what to do anymore.

And I'm now at the point where I don't care.

I mean come on?!
How do you run from yourself?