I wrote this on 10/23/05 I need some feed back. This one is dedicated to my dad. |
All I've ever done, was try to make you happy. I try to be your version, of a perfect daughter. I have worked so hard, to make you proud. But, it never seems to be enough for you. I can't ever do anything right. You make me feel, like I'm nothing sometimes. You say you love me, and then treat me like sh*t. Well, I'm sorry I can't be perfect. You should know, that no one really is. I can't help it that I'm not who you wanted me to be. I have to be myself, or I'll never be free. I try to do the things you ask, as well as I know how. If you think I'm always wrong, then do it your f***ing self. All I've ever done, is try my best in everything I do. But, I guess I'll just never be, good enough for you. I'm sorry I can't be, your little girl forever. I'm growing up, FACE IT, theres nothing you can do about it. I can't help the fact, that I have a life of my own. I'm not going to be like you, and nothing but go to work and then sit around at home. I have my own morals, goals, expectations, and dreams. You need to just except the fact, that I'm not going to change me. I'm not trying to hurt you, but you need to let me go. I'm not 10years old anymore, I'm almost on my own. I don't want to live at home forever, like my brother does. But, be thankful I learned from his mistakes. I won't be so stupid. You know I'll always love you, and I know you do care. But, you don't show it most the time, thats why I'm never there. All I'm asking from you, is to stope riding my a**. I'm doing my best since mom's been gone. I mean what do you expect. Both our lives changed when she passed, but that doesn't change the fact; that I'm older now, and you need to cut me some slack. I'm sorry that you don't understand, why I'm the way I am. I don't exspect you too. But, you need to deal with it, because you obviously don't know me anymore, You haven't for awhile. So, don't try so hard now, you probably never will. I'm Sorry! |