A poem I wrote to an ex while he was away in jail. |
I can't hold on To your ghost. You're so far away, Yet still so close. I have faultered More than once. Your presence lingers; My life it haunts. I wish I'd never done it. How I wish I could be true. But it's so terribly hard When I don't have you. I never meant to hurt you. It's not what I intended, When I asked you to come back to me; Or for the relationship we mended. Baby you know me. You know who I am, Better than I do. So I hope you understand, Why I'm saying what I'm saying... ...That right now we can't be. I know the pain this causes you. Know that it's killing me. To make it up when you get home There's nothing I won't do. But right now I can't lie to me And will not decieve you. Please believe that I still love you. Believe that I mean well. Believe that it will stay that way, Until Heaven becomes Hell. I don't want a relationship With anyone but you. I just can't live with all this guilt. It's tearing me in two. I know what I did was wrong. I'm so sorry that I failed you. When you return we can start over.. ...If you'd still like to. I pray one day you'll come back to me And we can truely be together. Only then can we begin Our own private forever. |