A Pitcher In A Pint

If someone's trying to steal from you,
just let them have it!
Sometimes less is more,
but I want to be able to feel what's wrong
and what else I can do,
besides the stuff I know already.
So where am I now?
Am I sure the real answer
will coincide with my hopes
or situations present?
Most days are better than the past,
certainly,
but anger's the outcome
when resolution fails me.
Much like hurt is my forte,
when I open my mouth
and intake/output spoils me for the thousandth time.
I want to forget the karma
and screw the coffee after 6pm.
This is something I need,
for me, right now;
and maybe it's not right in my system
but it damn sure feels like it is
somewhere.
This has taken from me too long
for far
too
long
all along
and I
need
to stand up for myself
for once in my life
and tell
it
to stop!
I don't like the laughing,
I distrust the whispers
and I won't watch
the best parts of me fade away.
Just tell me no,
please tell me no,
and let me pray that I can walk
safely and secure
thinking of all the worse-off bets.
Thinking I might have to fall
a little
before I can run on my own terms
finally.
Let them have it!
Let them have it!
Let them have it for themselves;
they can take all they want
but they'll never
         never
         never
         never again witness
what this
has done
to me. Once I'm over then I'm through with you.