live and learn

My head throbs thinking these thoughts
My head hurts depressed and lost
I reach out to find myself but my heart was the cost
And I got the short stick abort quick before im sucked in
I am attached so shit im an emotional gimp
Set to explode inside like the Lunenburg blimp
Love is more powerful acid and shrooms mixed
I feel like shit the way my feelings make my head trip
No one cares tho even if half wont admit it
Some say I care about u bryan then leave like an acid vision
Some say they care unless it means they have to put their ass in the line of fire
We r cool till things get hard for me then our relationship expires
But sumtimes its too late punctured heart like a tire
Nocks me off coarse so I try and get back on the road
Before I erode depressed with no soul im fuckin alone
And it will be this way unless sumtime along this trail unfolds
Someone truly mine and im hers I can call it my own
But ive so far been shown that its not easy to find love
Why cant my heart leave me alone
Im not good enough and that’s how it goes
Don’t rub it in my face and stick the shit in my nose
I know the reality already I don’t need another dose
Ive learned that life blows it slices souls
So im forced be alone like the bridge an the trole
But I don’t know if in time a traveler will want to pass thru
Will I find love there amongst the three Billy goats
Or is this just silly notes
Poetry and prose or complaint a wine and a grown
Ill live on I know but as I move on this path that wont alter pain burns slow
I want to change corse and find a new road
But id have a better chance turning the prince back to a toad
Or exploding the presidents humble abode
Or killing the us army with no weapons and a blindfold
But ill still try despite my lows
Cuz I feel sumthing in my reach but im not that close
So before I can grab it for my own It goes
So for now ill just live on in a poem
Ill try to be kind and reap what I sow
Make friends with foes and internally glow
Let it set flame in me givng my heart a third degree burn
Maybe it wont be me next to get shit canned
Maybe its your turn
Ive made mistakes but fuck it u live and u learn